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I originally created this blog with the intent of even making it look like the old blog, but I discovered that my eyes really don't like the white text on a dark background. I will probably never use such a color scheme again because I can't read it.
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OH WAIT! All comments made in bold on older posts are comments that I made as of porting them over to this blog. Some of them correct continuity things and others are just random notes. Thought I'd let you know!
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Thursday, March 28, 2013
It just...HIT me all of a sudden
Song - Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin
~~
I... seriously don't know where this came from. I was
listening to the song while writing, and it really just hit me. HARD.
This song fits Shad
and...
how he feels about loving Kairi.
Because he loves her. He'll just never admit it because it
shouldn't technically be possible and he's confused and angry about it
which is... what this song portrays
his frustration towards the fact that he loves her.
and... I know you haven't actually seen it in story yet. Not
all of it anyway, and, hey, count yourselves lucky! I'm sort of telling you
something before it shows up in-story! But, I didn't want to lose this rant...
and I hate saving things til later, because then I never quite feel the same
way towards them and it always comes out like crap.
so...
yeah.
This song just... really fits him. It's got that anger and
yet that cockiness underneath it, which Breaking Benjamin is really good at...
(I think. I've only really listen to two of their songs, but both of
them are like that... soo...)
anyway
---
"If I had to, I would put myself right besides you, so
let me ask: 'would you like that?'"
~let's see... this is how Shad sorta feels towards Kairi... the "I really do want to be with you, even there's no possible way it's going to actually happen, but maybe I'll try to force it anyway" (which, if you remember that AMV I posted awhile back "A Poisonous Infatuation", seems to fit Vanitas in that AMV...)
~let's see... this is how Shad sorta feels towards Kairi... the "I really do want to be with you, even there's no possible way it's going to actually happen, but maybe I'll try to force it anyway" (which, if you remember that AMV I posted awhile back "A Poisonous Infatuation", seems to fit Vanitas in that AMV...)
"Something's getting in the way"
~*cough* the fact he shouldn't be able to feel love *cough cough*
~*cough* the fact he shouldn't be able to feel love *cough cough*
"Something's just about to break"
~eh... I can't think of anything to say about this line that isn't entirely spoiler-y.
~eh... I can't think of anything to say about this line that isn't entirely spoiler-y.
"I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane"
~metaphor here! this would basically be "I will try and find my place in Kairi's life"
~metaphor here! this would basically be "I will try and find my place in Kairi's life"
"So tell me how it should be"
~I feel like he'd be yelling at someone here. Sora, maybe? Kairi (if he had the guts to yell at her). This would be... frustration about not quite understanding quite understanding how it's possible for him to love her. Or, him demanding to know how things are supposed to work out. Sheesh, you put him yelling this line and a million different possiblities about what he's yelling about surface
~I feel like he'd be yelling at someone here. Sora, maybe? Kairi (if he had the guts to yell at her). This would be... frustration about not quite understanding quite understanding how it's possible for him to love her. Or, him demanding to know how things are supposed to work out. Sheesh, you put him yelling this line and a million different possiblities about what he's yelling about surface
"Try to find out what makes you tick"
~Do I need to explain this line? It is such a Shad line...
~Do I need to explain this line? It is such a Shad line...
"As I lie down, sore and sick"
~erm, I don't have anything specific for this one. And the only thing I can think of is spoilery and only barely applies
~erm, I don't have anything specific for this one. And the only thing I can think of is spoilery and only barely applies
"There's a fine line between love and hate"
~that fine line he's walking between loving Kairi and absolutely hating the fact that he does
~that fine line he's walking between loving Kairi and absolutely hating the fact that he does
"And I don't mind"
~well, this would imply that he doesn't mind that line. Maybe it's because he enjoys the frustration in some weird twisted way that only Shad (okay, maybe Vanitas, too) could pull.
or, fish, maybe it just doesn't fit
~well, this would imply that he doesn't mind that line. Maybe it's because he enjoys the frustration in some weird twisted way that only Shad (okay, maybe Vanitas, too) could pull.
or, fish, maybe it just doesn't fit
already explained the chorus...
"As I burn another page"
~Hmm... I think of a page of Namine's sketchbook on this line. It's probably because of the AMV I typically watch...
However, you could take this line as him trying to hide his identity, because if Kairi finds out who he really is he's completley screwed
~Hmm... I think of a page of Namine's sketchbook on this line. It's probably because of the AMV I typically watch...
However, you could take this line as him trying to hide his identity, because if Kairi finds out who he really is he's completley screwed
"As I look the other way"
~umm... I feel guilt with this line. Not sure about what.
~umm... I feel guilt with this line. Not sure about what.
"Desperate I will crawl"
~He's desperate. Desperate about... eh... a lot of things? This is like the "So tell me how it should be" line. You can put so many different spins on it...
~He's desperate. Desperate about... eh... a lot of things? This is like the "So tell me how it should be" line. You can put so many different spins on it...
"Waiting for so long; there's no love"
~These two lines go together. He's... waiting for things to work out? His feeling for Kairi to go away? Trying to get himself to snap out of it?
~These two lines go together. He's... waiting for things to work out? His feeling for Kairi to go away? Trying to get himself to snap out of it?
good gravy, Shad! You're confusing me!
"Die for anyone; what have I become!?"
~He's shouting again. And I know exactly what about. I can't say what because it's spoilers.
~He's shouting again. And I know exactly what about. I can't say what because it's spoilers.
and...
that's it...
Hymn for the Missing
betterish breakdown on the SoKai page
Where are you now?
Are you lost?
Will I find you again?
Are you alone?
Are you afraid? (Kairi's worried about him)
Are you searching for me? (Sora interrupts her with his own curious/worried/hopeful thoughts)
Why did you go? (She asks)
I had to stay (He replies. I know it doesn't ENTIRELY make sense splitting it here, but it's like he's saying "I had to stay away from you")
Now I'm reaching for you
Will you wait? will you wait?
Will I see you again? (Now he wants to know how she feels)
or... the hope she had, since Shad brutally crushed all her
hope by telling her that Sora was gone...
these posts are probably just going to come whenever
something hits me
though, I swear, I will have that "Never Go Back"
one up... eventually...
~~
Song - Hymn for the Missing by Red
~~
I was just listening to a mix of Red, and then this song
came on, and I'm like... "huh." Because, it kind of fit's SoKai.
Really. It makes me think of where they are currently in the fic (specifically
what'll happen in a scene that hasn't happened yet, but I am NEARLY there. I'll
mention it to you guys when it comes up)
And... that's about it... I'll just do a break down of it,
and you'll understand
~~
in fact, this is one of the more simpler breakdowns I will
probably ever do, because the song really speaks for itself once you know who
is singing what.
and, for the sake of being less confusing
Sora - regular font
Kairi - italics
now if you excuse me, I'm going to be lazy and just copy and
paste the lyrics instead of typing them up
I tried to walk together
But the night was growing dark
Thought you were beside me
But I reached and you were gone
Sometimes I hear you calling
From some lost and distant shore
I hear you crying softly for the way it was before
But the night was growing dark
Thought you were beside me
But I reached and you were gone
Sometimes I hear you calling
From some lost and distant shore
I hear you crying softly for the way it was before
~ Sora's thinking about Kairi. I'd say more, but it would be
over explaining
Where are you now?
Are you lost?
Will I find you again?
Are you alone?
Are you afraid? (Kairi's worried about him)
Are you searching for me? (Sora interrupts her with his own curious/worried/hopeful thoughts)
Why did you go? (She asks)
I had to stay (He replies. I know it doesn't ENTIRELY make sense splitting it here, but it's like he's saying "I had to stay away from you")
Now I'm reaching for you
Will you wait? will you wait?
Will I see you again? (Now he wants to know how she feels)
You took it with you when you left
These scars are just a trace
Now it wanders lost and wounded
This heart that I misplaced
These scars are just a trace
Now it wanders lost and wounded
This heart that I misplaced
~ this was hard to place, but I gave it to Kairi. It makes
more sense that she sings it than Sora (I question the accuracy of this verse
at all, but, I also have yet to find a song that is absolutely PERFECT for a
character)
Where are you now?
Are you lost?
Will I find you again?
Are you alone?
Are you afraid?
Are you searching for me?
Why did you go?
I had to stay
Now I'm reaching for you
Will you wait? will you wait?
Will I see you again?
Are you lost?
Will I find you again?
Are you alone?
Are you afraid?
Are you searching for me?
Why did you go?
I had to stay
Now I'm reaching for you
Will you wait? will you wait?
Will I see you again?
~~
I think the song captures rather accurately (as a whole: see
my concerns about the second verse) the feeling of SoKai. With his worry about
how he feels about her, and her hope for him.
What was that I said about doing one of these when they hit me?
well, one hit me.
Song: Watch You Crawl - Red
~~
So... this song is SoravsShad. I thought that a while ago,
but I just now figured out how to swing that based on the lyrics. So...
BLOGGING TIME!!
This is actually staged like a battle. Like, if I ever were to put my fic into
a musical, Sora and Shad would randomly start singing this while fighting.
You put my back against the wall
Watching, waiting
~This is Sora (and I don't have anything else to say on it)
Watching, waiting
~This is Sora (and I don't have anything else to say on it)
You never thought I'd get this far
Beneath your skin
~this is Shad, taunting Sora
I watched you swim with all your lies
That pulled you under
~Sora taunting back, trying to prove he's stronger
And as you wait for my demise
I'm just getting stronger
~Shad laughing at Sora's determination
Learning who you really are
And nothing can save you
~Sora... uhm... I think this is self-explanitory
And nothing can save you
~Sora... uhm... I think this is self-explanitory
I will fight until the end
Get ready to collide
~Sora re-initiating the battle
Get ready to collide
~Sora re-initiating the battle
And I will watch you fall again
I'll bury you alive
~Shad's comeback as he probably dodges and maybe even trips Sora (he decided he wanted to put that literal spin on it)
You try to bring me to my knees
Trying to take it all
Now I will stand and watch you crawl
~Sora's comeback to Shad's comeback
I'll put you back where you belong
Hopeless, fading
~Sora repeating his determination to get rid of Shad
Hopeless, fading
~Sora repeating his determination to get rid of Shad
And I will rise while you become the monster you have fed
I'll let you drown in your despair
And now nothing can save you
~Shad taunting Sora, laughing, wondering how the hell Sora could ever think that he was going to win this
I will fight until the end
Get ready to collide
~Sora angrily getting back to his feet and fighting again
Get ready to collide
~Sora angrily getting back to his feet and fighting again
And I will watch you fall again
I'll bury you alive
~Shad replies with his typical response, reminding Sora it's useless
You try to bring me to my knees
Trying to take it all
Now I will stand and watch you crawl
~And Sora replies with determination to
I'm still here
Now I watch you beg
~I... I don't have any paticular person to peg to this. It could be either. Shad taunting Sora, or Sora finally snapping and shouting at Shad.
Now I watch you beg
~I... I don't have any paticular person to peg to this. It could be either. Shad taunting Sora, or Sora finally snapping and shouting at Shad.
and then... the chorus again. I mean, I'd do the sortof
"battle-breakdown" of it, but since I don't know who says the
previous line, I can't.
I'll Be Here in the Morning if you Say Stay
I've been wanting to do one of these posts for a while, ever
since I was listening to Evanescence's "Never Go Back" and related it
to my fic. However... that post can wait. Right now I am in a very Kairi mood,
and therefore am doing a post on this song.
Stay - Safetysuit
I'm going to start this off by saying that Safetysuit is an
absolutely wonderful band. Of their (only) album "Life Left to Go"
there's only one song that I don't like, and that's only because it's a really
slow song and I just can't relate to it at all (the song happens to be
"Gone Away" in case you're wondering)
"Annie" happens to be my personal favorite, though
only narrowly. "The Moment" is fun to listen to, as is
"Apology". "What If" and "Anywhere but Here" are
just beautiful.
But enough about the album.
~~~
"Stay" is, very simply, my SoKai song for Falling
to Pieces, and possibly the rest of the series, too.
And, I'm going to really quickly give you an overview of how
it applies and then break it down lyric by lyric, okay?
"Stay" captures Kairi's desperate attempts to keep
Sora from falling into darkness almost perfectly. It portrays this sense of
"hey, this isn't right, you should really stop... I just don't have the
heart to stop you myself... please come back..." The way she tries to stay
with him, even though he's very quickly leaving her behind, the way she tries
to trust him, tries to be kind to him, even though he's almost completely gone.
And, definitely, it portrays how she's not mad with him; that all she wants is
him to come back to her.
"Walking out the door this morning wondering what it is
that's going on with you,"
Do I need to explain this one?
Kairi's shock and confusion upon first seeing who Sora's becoming...
Do I need to explain this one?
Kairi's shock and confusion upon first seeing who Sora's becoming...
"Thinking of a way to say I'm sorry for something I'm
not sure I do,"
She'll apologize for something she hasn't done, just as long as it brings him back
She'll apologize for something she hasn't done, just as long as it brings him back
The chorus is almost self-explanatory.
"Something must have made you say that; what did I do?"
Kairi's not necessarily one to blame herself, though, but the point is there.
Kairi's not necessarily one to blame herself, though, but the point is there.
"What can I do to make you say 'come back to me'?"
well, this one doesn't fit perfectly, but perfection is hard to come by. I've found few songs that every singly lyric happens to fit. However, the heart of this would be:
"What can I do to make you come back?"
well, this one doesn't fit perfectly, but perfection is hard to come by. I've found few songs that every singly lyric happens to fit. However, the heart of this would be:
"What can I do to make you come back?"
"So come on baby let me in and show me what this really
is about,"
another self-explanatory one...
another self-explanatory one...
"And I'll be here in the morning if you say stay,"
She's not about to leave him. If she did leave, it would only be at his request.
She's not about to leave him. If she did leave, it would only be at his request.
~~~
hrm... I thought I would have more to say than that.
oh well. Why don't you just go listen to the song yourself?
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